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OUT OF CHARACTER

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IN CHARACTER

Name: Allison Argent
Canon: Teen Wolf
Age: 17
Timeline: 3x23: Insatiable - right before the big fight.
Background: just your normal girl ⇏ in an abnormal world

Personality:

Before moving to Beacon Hills, Allison Argent's life had been primarily about one thing: finding herself. With a father who was a highly respected and federally licensed weapons distributor, they moved around just about as much as Allison's interests did. From painting to poetry to gymnastics to archery, when Allison made friends only to leave them, it was her hobbies that stuck. Her parents encouraged the activity, for it kept their daughter fit and social and gave her a place where she could feel confident in her skills and her skin. Allison's interests narrowed as the years went on, to primarily gymnastics and archery, both of which she decided to leave behind when she came to Beacon Hills. It was a new town, a new (high) school, and it was time for new friends. Because that's what she wanted, friends that weren't her parents and her Aunt Kate, but little did she know that it was this need to be accepted and to find her rhythm that would eventually uncover secrets she hadn't even known her parents were hiding. And with those secrets would give Allison a chance to find herself, destroy that self, and recreate everything it is she wanted to be.

⇏ BREAKING IN, SHAPING UP ⇏
The Allison we meet in the first episode of Teen Wolf is a young Allison - not by years, but by experience. She's new to town and ready to make friends, to focus on her life as a high school student, and to maybe find a boyfriend - and for the first bit of her time there, that's what she does. She and Scott click fast and early, because for Allison she craves the connection. Friends are easy, are something she does and redoes often, but first loves? First loves are different, and Scott was adorable and sweet and caring and she felt everything the songs told her when they kissed.

The Allison that Scott fell in love with was bright. She laughed and loved as easily as she could, she flirted and kissed and set her feet in the sand that was Beacon Hills. Soon enough she had friends, good friends, and she had a boyfriend and she was making the grades, and that's all she could really ask for at the time. A carefree and confident girl, Allison came across as what could be considered normal. Or as normal as she could get, with a hunter father and a werewolf boyfriend - neither descriptor she was aware of, either. As far as Allison knew, her father was over-protective and Scott was perfect, though sometimes strange, and her life was finally going right. Her parents promised they'd stick there for High School, which meant she could finally make a name for herself in the way she wanted to, and things were going just as she planned.

It's this confidence in herself that led her further down this road of discovery and destruction. A naturally curious girl, Allison couldn't help but take up the challenge her favorite Aunt Kate gave her - a little research on her family history. She starts to find some interesting stories about a particular myth, and Scott becomes distant. Very distant. Up until the night they're attacked in the school, and Allison has a reality check, because when everything goes right, things seem perfect, and all it takes is one bad night for it all to come crashing down. For a girl who was so confident and sure of herself, she comes to realize just how powerless she really is, left to be locked in a room while Scott ran out to save them all. Unable to help build self-igniting bombs, or protect her friends. This is the moment when Allison decides she wants to change - she breaks up with Scott, tells her Aunt Kate that she wants to be trained, and she wants to change.

But this is the first of many times that Allison finds herself in over her head. Kate shows her what her family really does, shows her Derek tied to a wall, being tortured and Allison...well. At first she freaks, which is understandable considering the circumstances, but it is the moment he gets pulled over sobbing in her car that she realizes how disgusted she really is in herself. She asked for this, she wanted to be trained, and she's acting like a little girl. This is really the first time we see the Argent blood in her, the moment when the switch flips and Allison decides that this is what she wants to do, and will do.

⇏ WAKING UP TO ASH AND DUST ⇏

The night of the Winter Formal is a complicated one - one where Allison's two worlds collide for the worst, and end with Lydia in the hospital and the realization that her (ex) boyfriend is a werewolf that her father and aunt have been hunting. When Lydia's found, it's obvious she's been attacked by an alpha, and Allison's father attempts to push Kate and Allison both out of state. That doesn't sit well with Allison, because of what happened with Scott, and it doesn't sit well with Kate because the action is still here. This leads to that and Allison joins Kate to hunt down the alpha that tried to kill her best friend. Allison tries to keep up because this is what she asked for and this is still her Aunt. Her favorite Aunt. So she goes, and she helps, and she watches as werewolves fight werewolves and her Aunt and Father fight too and eventually it comes down to a team-effort between them all to light Peter up. But not until after she watches her Aunt's throat get ripped from her as Allison just stands and watches. In a clash of what she knew and what she finds out, Allison and Scott make up, realizing that their lives are still intertwined and that's okay.

Or, okay for them. Allison's parents are anything but okay with their daughter dating a werewolf, which sends Allison and Scott into a secret relationship, one that grows more and more complicated as the semester moves on. Scott's distracted by the supernatural side of life, Allison is dealing with her grandfather (the hunter arsenal) coming to town for her aunt's funeral, and staying on ground of revenge. Derek starts to build a pack, and Allison starts her 'official' training, which involves staged kidnapping and impromptu training sessions. She's torn between her family and Scott, because she's not supposed to have ties with one side, and feels uneasy about what is being kept from her on the other. It's around this time that Allison really starts to be concerned with how involved she is in the life. Now that she knows, she should know everything, and it becomes painfully obvious how little she's actually being told. But at the same time, she desperately clings to her normal, teenager side of life - a life that her parents have all but decided doesn't exist anymore. She tries to be confident, she tries to not be jealous of girls (Erica) hitting on Scott, and she tries to keep up with the Kanima and the Argents and this idea of duty and honor and our sons are raised to be soldiers, our daughter leaders. When she can barely keep her own mind straight, Allison's not sure how she feels about leading, despite the talks she has with her father about responsibility and honor. She just feels in over her head, trying to keep her head above water, living two different lives and needing to find a foothole. It doesn't help that it's around this time that her feelings for Scott shift - she loves him. Loves him more than she can stand, but Scott is starting to fight the 'my happiness or the happiness of others' fight, which leaves Allison feeling a little betrayed. Misunderstandings lead to people getting hurt, and Allison is struggling to keep up. She wants to be included and she wants to help, but she's never really sure how, and this struggle with the added issue of her own teenage-driven self esteem issues, gives Allison even less footing to cling to at the next big change.

Allison's next big shift happens when she gets a call at Lydia's birthday party, a call no teenage girl should get. Her mother has taken her life, and Allison has no idea why. It is at this emotionally fragile stage that her grandfather - Gerard - steps in, and Allison is basically puppetted around from there on out. She's driven by guilt - by the last thing she told her mother, by the fact she couldn't help save her, by the fact it must have been something she did to spur it on. But then Allison remembers her mother's words, how pain will push her to strength, and while Allison has been avoiding pain to desperately cling to being a teenager, she realizes that's no longer an option. At the death of her mother, Allison looks for a new rock to lean on, and that is when her grandfather steps in. One moment we see Allison being handed a note by Gerard, told it's from her mother. The next we see her destroying her room, getting rid of any and everything person, everything immature, and when she redresses it's in all black as she prepares for revenge. For her new purpose. This is one of the clearest moments we get of Allison's drive, her ability to make a decision and stick to it, no matter the circumstances or the situation. She has chosen to take her place in the family, and without her mother she is next in line to lead, and she does. She steps right up and takes that position with a clenched jaw and forced nonchalance.

She gives the impression of what she assumes she's supposed to be - unfeeling, unforgiving and malicious. She's strong and powerful and she's everything she assumes she has to be, everything that Gerard tells her she needs to be. She hunts down Erica and Boyd and Isaac without issue, attacks them and ties them up and feels no mercy, because this is what she's supposed to do. This is who she is supposed to be. Even when her father tries to talk sense into her, Allison doesn't listen, because Gerdard is leading her in a certain direction and that is a direction she can take. While she thinks she's taken on the part of the leader, Gerdard is still pulling the strings, and Allison has no idea. She trusts her grandfather, because if you can't trust family, who can you trust? A best friend that poisons you to near-insanity? A boyfriend who is a monster? Her whole life she's depended and trusted her family, so there's no reason she couldn't now.

It's not until the climactic end of the season that Allison realizes how wrong she's been. When Gerard's true colors are shown, it sinks in just how much she's been manipulated, used, and abused by her grandfather, a man she had put her trust in so fully. He nearly kills her in his attempt to get what he wants, and Allison is crushed, the foundation she had built this new her on top of disappearing from beneath her feet. They manage to stop the kanima, cure him actually, and it doesn't end there. Not for Allison. The worst of it comes later, because where everyone else can go home with the great feeling of a job well done, Allison has to deal with the fact she has been constantly manipulated by her grandfather, has done more horrible things than she can imagine, and has no idea where she stands. The guilt weighs down on her more than anything; guilt for her mother's death, guilt for hunting down Erica and Boyd, guilt for the fact she was all but ready to kill Scott...so she does the only thing she thinks she can do, which is break it off with him. She can't deal with a relationship right now when she can barely handle her own life, and Scott says it's okay. It's fine. Whatever she needs to do, he'll let her do it, because he's willing to wait for as long as it takes. They kiss, a goodbye to end all goodbyes as far as Allison is concerned, and she is left to whatever of herself hasn't fallen apart. She leaves for France not long after, in an attempt to let things settle and give her time to find herself.

⇏ WELCOME TO THE NEW AGE ⇏
When Allison returns to Beacon Hills, it's as a fragile, repaired mirror. She left for France to put back the pieces of her life and her self, to find out who she was without werewolves and boyfriends and school, and it's evident that despite her excitement to be back with friends, she's still worried, and is walking on glass wherever she moves. She wants to be Allison again, but with everything that's happened, she's not quite sure who that is.

But she is Allison. Which means that when she sees Scott in school, and wants to talk to him. When her class is attacked by birds, she wants to know why. When a strange woman comes up and leaves an imprint on her and Lydia's arms, she wants to know why she asked for Scott and what it means. She's just as determined, stubborn, and curious as before, but this time she has experience, she has the chance to look at a situation and know where she's been before. When Derek tells her she needs evidence about her mark, she goes out to find it for herself, because she will still be Allison Argent at the end of the day, and whoever that girl ends up to be, she wants to be able to look her reflection in the eye. Determined, driven, and desperate to find her place in this world, she does what she knows needs to be done, sees things from a different - trained - perspective. She's stubborn but can be persuaded, analytical from the outside and confident in the midst of it. This new Allison is also an independent Allison. It's one who is wary to trust, because of how she's been hurt in the past, and quick to jump in on her own because of her need to prove - to herself, and to everyone else - that she can.

She is also prepared to fix her mistakes. Being able to face the person she become, and the things she did, was one of the hardest things for her to do, but she's doing it. When she messes up, she goes out to fix it, no matter if it's dangerous or a threat to her life. As long as she's smart about her hunting, she can hunt, because she can't let (more) innocent people die because of her. Her sense of morals is strong, but so is her loyalty to her friends and family, and Scott, wherever he lands on that spectrum. For Allison, it's a matter of proving to herself that she doesn't need Scott, despite wanting to be around him, despite worrying and stressing and constantly wondering where he is and what he's doing. Scott's self-sacrificing tendencies kicked a new gear up in Allison, where if Scott won't worry about his own safety, she will. This protectiveness ends up applying to all her closer friends - Scott, Lydia, Stiles and Isaac as the weeks go on.

Allison used to find herself in a constant battle between the bigger picture and her smaller circle. With the loss to her family that she suffered, she'd almost violently protective of her friends, and while she may not agree with what they plan she will do whatever is in her power to help them - including helping Derek Hale, someone who had been enemy number one for so long, if it meant helping Scott, Isaac and Boyd. She will do whatever it takes to keep those people safe, because that scope is enough for her to handle. For the majority of the season, at least, and it shifts even further at the end when things are all said and done. By finding that balance in her life between being able to protect her friends and family, and find herself, Allison convinces her father to start hunting again but by a new code. We protect those who cannot protect themselves. Scott's always tried to save everyone, it's in his blood, but Allison had to start small to get there.

But she's also bigger than just her hunting. She's compassionate, caring, friendly when she wants and funny when she can. She dimples when she laughs and she's sarcastic when she wants, and she loves. Her friends, her dad, and she's working on herself - it's a harder battle than the rest, with the guilt she carries, the understanding that everything she did was a choice and the consequences too. But she's working on it, just as she's working on dealing with that darkness in her heart, that heaviness in her chest. She's someone, for sure, and she's getting closer to accepting that this someone is her.

Suitcase:

⇏ 3 dresses
⇏ 2 pairs of tights
⇏ 2 pairs of pants (jeans, black)
⇏ various sets of underwear
⇏ 2 pairs of boots
⇏ 1 pair tennis shoes
⇏ 3 jackets (long black, leather, green)
⇏ 2 t-shirts
⇏ 1 pair shorts
⇏ 1 wallet (ID, money, credit cards, pictures)
⇏ 1 smartphone (useless)
⇏ 1 toiletries set (toothbrush, toothpaste, brush, hair ties, etc.)

Surprise? sure!

SAMPLES

Network Sample:

[ they step through the gate, and everything goes black. allison doesn’t know if she hit her head, if she passed out, if it’s something to do with the magic of the place, but they all step through and then nothing. nothing, up until she feels the impact of hitting a floor, and when her eyes fly open she finds that she’s inside somewhere. thin carpet, dark halls, dust. she sits up so fast her head spins a little, but she forces herself through it to get up, to look around.

her heart feels like it’s going to explode - they were going to save lydia, to take on the nogitsune. they were going to finish this. and now where was she? some…hotel? she doesn’t know, but she starts moving and trips over a suitcase, a suitcase that has her name and some number, and when she rips it open, is full of her clothes. what follows comes as something of a blur, because there are things and a tablet and a hallway and a room. lots of rooms. but none of them have lydia.

allison looks, but whatever happened left her unarmed with only her clothes, this suitcase, and the strange tablet she found inside. she searches the floors first, all the way down to some lobby with no door. some lobby, where the glass didn’t break and the walls were too thick to get through. after she checks all she can check, ending up back in her room, she turns to the tablet - her last resort. when she turns on the feed, she look a little rumpled, a little panicked. she’s fighting through it, though, gritting her teeth. ]

Lydia? Lydia, if you can see this- [ no, no that’s stupid, allison shakes her head. ] I’m looking for Lydia Martin. Red hair, heels, tell her Allison is looking for her, she’ll know who I am. [ she takes a breath, swallows, straights. ] Scott, Isaac, Kira- if any of you are here, I don’t- [ she purses her lips, stares at the screen for a few more moments, like she’s thinking over whether or not this was a good idea, before she shuts it off. ]

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